Out of all the elements of the conspiracy, sexuality is probably the most potent, the most regulated, and the most likely to challenge folks when revealed in its true Technicolor glory. Remember in Chapter 1, I wrote about how intuition has a near-fatal weakness, and that’s when we are dealing with a subject in which we have little self-awareness? I said that intuition can easily be co-opted by our conditioning into the conspiracy. I asked that if, when reading this book, you’re left with a gut feeling of nah, that’s just not right…, to seriously consider the possibility that this is not actually a gut feeling, but a “conditioning feeling.” I suspect that while the previous History chapter might have raised a few questions in your mind, my argument still sounded reasonable. I suspect you did not battle with a gut feeling when reading that chapter, but rather entered an intellectual duel with me: I made a point, you thought ah, but what about … This chapter is more likely to get you in the gut, which is why I’m addressing it early in the game.
I anticipate two primary outcomes from this. First, you’ll think what I’m saying is junk, and won’t read any further, in which case I’ve saved you the bother of slogging through to the end of the book. No need to thank me, honestly: I value your time as much as you do 😉 Second, if you stay onboard, you’ll have a better position from which to read the subsequent chapters, which should enable us to genuinely break some new ground. This might not happen if I sat here anxiously wringing my hands, holding back all the juicy stuff until the end. Whichever way, in order not to shortchange yourself, you need to seriously consider the possibility that your response is not actually a gut feeling, but a “conditioning feeling.” We’re going to look at how the Masculinity Conspiracy plays out in two books: Earth Honoring: The New Male Sexuality by Robert Lawlor and The Way of the Superior Man: A Spiritual Guide to Mastering the Challenges of Women, Work and Sexual Desire by David Deida. Remember, in the first section we’ll look at the conspiracy on its own terms, leaving the analysis and solutions to later sections.